Teeth trembling, hands shaking, cold and hot sweats. I’m finding it hard to catch my breath. I don’t know why I visited your page, but I did. All signs pointed to, “No, don’t do it”, computer lagging, arrow spinning waiting to load your page. I should have closed it, I should have fucking closed it, But I didn’t. The sight of your face made me weak, the sight of your photos with our friends, and photos with “him” made me dizzy. I couldn’t catch my breath. I fell off my chair onto my knees, my nose had started to bleed. Hands to my face i stare cold at the blood on my fingertips. I fell on my chest, face to the floor, I had passed out. I woke up to my brothers girlfriend next to me, to the sound of my brother frantic on the phone. He called the ambulance, Apparently I had a seizure. This was the worst depression relapse I’ve ever had. I need my meds, but conflicting health problems doesn’t allow me to. When will this all end? How will I end this?